Scared Shitless

So, I didn't get to make the trip to Washington for work like I had hoped. Even though I am disappointed, I'm not altogether that surprised. I knew they'd never send me. Instead, my supervisor is going as well as our head honcho's right hand man. They're both very knowledgeable on the material but I know I would have made a perfect addition to the trip. No I'm not trying to toot my own horn but, I've put lots of sweat and hours into learning my way through that system, figuring out short cuts, things that will help us be more efficient. I know that system more than the people who use it on a daily basis and SHOULD learn to make it work for them, yet I guess that's not enough.

To make things worse, like any other company, ours is taking precautions and adjusting with these hard economic times. Our salaries were frozen and our evaluations were put on hold. Yes, January was my anniversary date and the time I should have had my evaluation. A month later, no eval, no raise. Excellent.

The great thing about this situation is, they're very open to shifting people around to accomodate open positions or those that are about to open due to people who are not up to par in performance. This is where I come in. I had already shown interest in two other departments and am being considered. As much as I love my department, I'm ready for this, ready to give my all to another part of my beloved company. The only other thing is, so is another girl.

She's been here twice as long as I have, is considered one of the best employees in the company yet has no motivation to do anything other than her assigned job, even as she's being offered higher positions within the company. Now that there's a shadow hanging over our jobs, she seems to show interest in other departments. I can't say that I know for a fact that it's because there's a threat of unemployment thick in the air, but, it makes me uneasy.

I'm not afraid, I know what I can offer. I just wish others would step up and show what they're REALLY made of.

Eat the foooood!

So today is my mom's birthday and she's turning 51. Now, I'm kind of a deadbeat daughter so all I did was take her to get her hair done and I'll be cooking dinner for my family tonight. I'm no cook so luckily, this recipe is fairly easy. *phew* I don't have a picture of her on here and I can't get on myspace, but I look a lot like her. Both me and my sister do. Except Lulu, who is the spitting image of her dad. Hmm...I think I'll still get her something when I get paid. Maybe flowers,my mom loves roses.

I should get back to work, I'll bbl.

P.S. This is the flyer Syl made for my bday next week. Told you I was a deadbeat, I plan my own birthday bash but not my mom's :( In my defense, my party is at a bar. :P Laters.

Captain's Log: Supplemental

I am way too old for this shit! Lol I pulled a little maneuver this past week where I decided to party my ass off four days in a row, two of which were work nights.

I am EXHAUSTED. My pores are seeping alcohol :P I did DAS BOOT. I didn't puke after DAS BOOT which is an incredible feat. All in all, it was a great weekend, I probably had about 40 shots with all those days combined and NO I'm not exaggerating. Not to mention the countless beers. I can barely hold up right now but hey, better now than 20 years down the line right? Lol let's see how long I can keep telling myself that with a straight face.

Oooh mommy look a puppy!!!

Even though my mother doesn't think so, I think I'm ready to be a pet owner. Okay so I know I get into my crazy whims where at one point I even wanted a persian cat *bad idea* 1. I don't like cats 2. Those suckers shed like mad and I'd freak out if I was covered in cat hair. But! I like dogs, I always have. So, if I were to get a dog, which I will in the not too distant future, I'm getting a maltzer.

These amazing little creatures are a mix between the (you guessed it) maltese and shnauzer. Seriously, how cute is this?! The best thing about these dogs is that 1. They DON'T shed and 2. They grow to weigh up to 7lbs! My only fear would be stepping on one lol. :( *pouts*

Anyone got $700 so I can buy a dog? Hehe.